I've about had it with constantly being someone's second hand ass paper.
What this means is, and I know you've been here too...
There are always those people who follow at the end of the group, those people who the other might talk to when no one else is around to talk to, those people that only end up listening to the ass droppings of someone else's life and give them advice trying make them feel better. Essentially that's all they're good for.
This doesn't mean I'm saying "gee nooo buddy likes me bcuz im a losr." I find myself to be a pretty decent person, somewhat witty at times, not too bad to talk to, pretty understanding, and one to converse. I'm just sick of no one taking the time to get to know who I am really. I'm sick of talking about something pretty easy to discuss and actually state your opinion on, but only getting the response of something like, "You know what? I like fruity pebbles. LOLZ"
Like I said, some of this is my fault. I'm evidently not talking to the right people. I honestly like having a social life and for the most part I'm sick of being alone and don't care for it too much. On the same note, there is a REASON I guess I keep FORGETTING of why I've stayed to myself for most of my life, and the other side of this problem:
This world has gotten more fucking stupid by the minute, and I have a feeling that's not going away for quite sometime.
It's cool anymore to blow people off. It's cool anymore to act like you're not interested. It's cool to be self-centered and not have any manners. It's cool to cheat on your girl/boyfriends. It's cool to do drugs and act a fool and be depressed. It's cool to be ignorant and slutty and cheap. The mind is pretty much nothing but a dead weight nowadays. That shows true with just about anyone I meet (in my local area anyways) and that DISGUSTS me. I'm not claiming to be the dali lama, but come on... there are obvious points where human beings are just being flat out ridiculously and unabashedly IDIOTIC. I think that way about people and I'm sure there's someone right behind me thinking that way about me, but even that's a rarity. I have to give myself the credit that I'm a lot smarter than people you would run into on the street in real life, 9 times out of 10. And that's not a good thing. The media has dumbed down everything in existence. I'm seriously going to vomit all over myself.
I have a wonderful boyfriend and a best friend I've known for 8 years, and they're great... but they both live at least 4 hours away from me and I can't even step out of my house without being bombarded by stupidity in one way or another. Everything around me is just oozing with it. Teh Internets honestly isn't much better, but you have a better chance of finding someone without the small town close mindedness and all of 50 Cent's albums.
I kinda lost where I was going, but I think if anyone is reading this, they get the overall point. I know no one exists that can stand on top of a giant globe in a red billowing cape and shout, "NEVER FEAR, I WILL HALT THIS INTRUSION OF ASININE BEHAVIOR!" But it would be nice to know that there are more than a couple people who see what's going on here. OR you could come and blow up this state, either one.